Take a Breath, take it deep.

2010-03-01T23:03:00.001-08:00

ERNEST ROCKS! =)
and so does Nicoledenisehiiszewea! <3

I'm the Veins, She's the Arteries, He's the Capillaries.

2010-02-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

Beatrice Choo Pei San ! (:

You crazyy girl. (: But, thats why i sygs you <3 !

Wong Kum Fong ! (:

Thanks for updating my blog and sleeping on the floor. You're super awesome. (:

***

This two people here has been teman-ing me while i was in Setiawan. I love you guys!(:

:)

2010-02-13T07:23:00.001-08:00

From today onwards, WONG KUM FONG will be in this blog!
MUAHAHAHAH! I am so gonna hack this blog! xD
You better thank me NICOLE! :D

I blog for you next time la! Don't even know what to blog yet! HAHA!
Enjoy yourself in Setiawan! xD

- Kum Fong -

To be someone better.

2010-02-12T08:23:00.000-08:00

I'm going to stop talking about my friends behind their backs.

I'm going to stop spreading rumours about people.

I'm going to stop being a bitch.

I'm going to love those who hate me.

I'm going to stop judging people.

I'm going to stop insulting people.

I'm going to stop being a jerk to anyone or everyone.

Lastly, I have to forget about you.

I hate who i am right now. I hate being a teenager, its just too stressful for me. But, what can i do about it ? Hell, Life is not easy. I feel so lost in my own world. I feel that i don't belong with you guys anymore. I think its time to make a big change for myself. I definitely dislike how i feel right now. The feeling is just not right. I don't know what i want in life ? Its time for me to find out. I'm sorry if i ever hurt anyone of you. I hope you will see a change in me & i hope i will see a change in myself.

Sad , Disappointed , Angry , Hopeless

I need to get rid all of that and start new.

I have to

I want to

I need to

2010-02-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

Hello (:

It's Beatrice here blogging for Nicole cos she's an idiot and is so lazy to do anything ;D love you xD

Let's see. We were suppose to go for Valentine's Day movie but my tickets were revoked so i'm here at her house :D Her brother is soooo adorable but after a while he started to become annoying and i wanted to slap him -.- He cries for no apparent reason and is super manja.

He's mental. has a problem. But he's cute :D

2010-02-06T09:58:00.000-08:00

It was a very super last minute thing.

What was a very super last minute thing ?

Hatta's party was a very last minute thing for me.

Never wanted to ask my mum until she told me she was going for a party too. At first she said no, then the no turn into a yes. AND, if it weren't for RozeNn, i wouldn't go. SO, yeah. We karaoked , watched sawVI ( stupid show ) , ate pizza and some stayed over , some when home. Tak ada pictures ! Only took one in jonathan's phone. Hatta's house was like full of couples there. Some behind the curtain, some under the blanket, some in the room. At least, 3 couples. (: If me and huangchiawern is consider a couple , then 4 :p

One Tree Hill - season 7 episode 16

Vampire Diaries - season 1 episode 13

90210 - season 2 episode 13

Gossip Girl - season 3 episode 13

2010-02-06T09:33:00.000-08:00

Hey, YOU.

I miss you. I don't hate you. I don't know whether i do still like you. But I can't be with you, because from what I've done in the past, I can't bring myself to hurt you again. I can't bring myself to talk to you or to text you because I can't lose you again. We have memories together but now, I call it histories. It's stupid to hide my feelings for you but what choice do I have ? I know you've tried and now it's my turn to bring you and me back. But, we can't be how we used to be. I can't be with you because i can never be able to see you get hurt by me again. I know you may never want to talk to me again but as long as i'm able to like you silently, i'll still be alright.

So, you tell me .

Am i ready to let you go , my very first love ?

Do i still hope a chance between us both ?

No, i'm not ready.

I can't answer that.

You're wild. You're extreme. You certainly do not care about what people think. You love black, white and grey.

Are you him ?

2010-02-06T09:11:00.000-08:00

SORRY, READERS. I PROMISE TO BLOG WHEN I'M FREE AIGHTS ? (:

2009-12-28T06:20:00.001-08:00

I hate you so leave me alone. I've never ever hate anyone as much as i hate you right now. Stop talking to me. Please.

2009-12-03T01:21:00.000-08:00

Can't live without him ; Can't live with him

Will we ?

2009-12-02T02:04:00.000-08:00

Will we ever be okay ?

Will we ever be close friends again ?

Will we ever forget about the past ?

Will we ever remember our happy times ?

Will we ever be there for each other ?

Will we friends, stick together forever ?

6 questions , 6 answers

It is just 6 normal questions to answer, but every answer means the everything to me.

2009-12-02T01:50:00.000-08:00

Right now,

if I have just one wish,

....

I wish for my world to end,

Forever.

2009-11-25T07:50:00.000-08:00

Hey, sexy babe (:

LEOWWEIJIAN, HAPPY BIRTHDAY. (: I HOPE YOU HAD A BLAST THE OTHER DAY AT YOUR PARTY. HAHA. I STILL CAN REMEMBER WHAT YOUR MUM SAID WHEN YOU MADE YOUR WISH. MORE BOOKS, NOT MORE GIRLS. :D I HATE TO ADMIT BUT, SHE'S RIGHT. AND BROTHER, THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. (: <3

2009-11-25T07:41:00.000-08:00

Monday ; 23.11.2009

Joel's party ! (:

Around 2 something, I received a phone call from Marianne saying that she can go. I was excited and suprised though. I was suppose to follow either my mum or Iain but instead, i went with Marianne. We reached around 6 something and saw caryn, bryan, iain and fanleon waiting outside. Wehang around the swimming pool until around 8 then we walked to Wong Poh for our dinner. Thanks to joel's mum for the amazing meal. Something funny happened, or should i say somethng mean ? Someone throwed ice at fanleon and he thought it was kyrie and guess what fanleon threw back at him ? PORK. If i were kyrie i would throw the whole plate back at him. Before makan, me;huixian;caryn;marianne found out cool place to hang out. It was next to the drain with full of workers staring at us :S After makan, we went back to joel's place, and as usual we were drag down to the pool. Then it was CAKE time (: I didn't eat though. I told joel's mum i'm allergic to chocolate. Hehs. After all the crazyness, me;caryn;huixian had a long talk with Mr Asyraff. (: Hopefully, we put some sense into his head. :D

pictures time (:

And i found out something unexpected to be on that night, so did everyone else.

xoxo,

the girl with full of many heartbroken stories in her life.

2009-11-20T07:55:00.000-08:00

sexybitches(:

they are super cute, but they both are suckers.

they are just so friggin awesome.

they cheer me up when i'm down.

they love me for who I am.

thats why i love them .

they both are the only people, i trust.

they understand me like no one else does.

i would risk my life for them.

no one can ever replace them.

i'm just too lucky to have them.

they are always there when i needed them.

when i'm scared,

when i'm afraid,

when i'm angry,

when i cry,

they both are the only people i can let out my feelings to,

the only people that would understand how i feel,

because they feel the same way.

our friendship is a masterpiece, that can never be broken,

or replace.

SUCKER,

ISTILLLOVEYOU.

2009-11-18T09:55:00.000-08:00

i'm currently so mad that i can just take my laptop and throw it away,

stupid goddamn f*cking msn,

marianne,

comeonline,

i'm going to die soon,

bitch.

2009-11-18T09:44:00.000-08:00

i have a big fucking problem with MSN.

sucks.

ARGH.

2009-11-17T02:40:00.000-08:00

i miss it.

2009-11-16T22:42:00.001-08:00

badromance.

2009-11-16T11:15:00.000-08:00

Joel's birthday party is coming up, and i wish to go (:

SEXY <3

She's My Girl :D

2009-11-16T11:06:00.000-08:00

hehs. still remember ? you and your family got this for me for my birthday present. I will treasure it for the rest of my life (: You are ONE damn great awesome friend. You were there whenever i needed you. You were the one who cheered me up whenever i'm down. I have been friends with you for 6 years, and in this past 6 years, i've learnt alot from you. We have our up's and down's but you're still and will always be my best friend. ahah. Whenever you are sad, i just want you to know i will always be there for you. Now and always. You make me smile, you make me laugh, you make me cry, you make me angry, you make me go crazy ; but that is what friends for, eh ? (: I just want to say, thanks for everything babe. I sygs you <3

2009-11-16T10:26:00.000-08:00

imissyoupeople<3

The Love That Started It All.

2009-11-16T10:10:00.000-08:00

Love never Dies. But, in this case, i would have to agree completely. All memories shall stay behind in the past. Thanks for everything. But its time to say ; Goodbye,love.

theoriginalforbiddenlove. <3

everyone wants to be a star (:

2009-11-16T09:48:00.000-08:00

mysisters'sconcert (:

and lastly, they may not be my real brothers and sister, but i do still love them no matter what. They are still my family and even though i see them once in few months, they will always be in my heart.

xoxo

Nicole

crazzzzie :D

2009-11-15T15:01:00.000-08:00

oh damn it.
It's 7am and i'm off to bed ! (:
heeheh.

2009-11-15T14:59:00.000-08:00

7:00a.m ! (:

2009-11-15T14:55:00.000-08:00

6:55 a.m ! (:

2009-11-15T14:47:00.001-08:00

6:45a.m ! (:

2009-11-15T14:36:00.001-08:00

6:35a.m ! (:

2009-11-15T14:01:00.000-08:00

oh baby, it's currently 6A.M and i'm still wide awake. (: best part is, i have to wake up at 9 tomorrow. Thats just so freaking awesome. Don't you think so ? :D

ihavingonedamnhardtimetryingtosleep.

2009-11-13T00:28:00.000-08:00

His eyes met mine and the rest of the room faded away. I'm always going to keep your heart safe, even if mine has to stop beating for that to happen, " he told me softly.

2009-11-12T08:47:00.000-08:00

IF ONLY, I KNEW YOU EARLIER.

heheh. idontloveyounomore.

xoxo,

thegirlwithfullofbitchness.

2009-11-11T21:03:00.000-08:00

oh suckaas <3 ,
i sygs you and her la,
hehehe. :D

2009-11-11T21:00:00.000-08:00

OH BABY, I MISS YOU (:

2009-11-06T08:52:00.000-08:00

TC ! hehe. I went to TC with huixian and marianne. (: We hang around there till asyraff came. Then we went to Caryn's apartment to look for FanLeon :D Then Caryn came back from her mum's office and brought huixian up and left me and fanleon downstairs. (: We ordered pizza, watch some stupid ghost movie, dyed hair, and off we go ! (:

pictures tomorrow ; maaf

something is wrong with my laptop.

goddamnit.

2009-11-06T08:17:00.000-08:00

OMG. WHYCAN'TYOUJUSTTRUSTME ?

2009-11-05T09:40:00.000-08:00

it was just too perfect.

2009-11-05T09:37:00.001-08:00

it is so cold.

2009-11-05T09:35:00.000-08:00

Ooh la la (:

that is all, baby (:

iloveyou<3

xoxo,

NICOLE

2009-11-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

I'm so madly in love with my RED shorts.

2009-11-01T11:17:00.000-08:00

it is just too unbelievable .

2009-11-01T11:13:00.000-08:00

i can't take it anymore. i told you the truth. do you believe me ? i don't think so. Because, i really do like you and i'm sorry if i do but feelings just came like that. All the time, you ask me why i like you. I can't tell you why because i don't know why. The feelings just come, and it is not easy to let go like that. I'm sorry i got angry at you and I scolded you. But its like everything is a joke to you ? Well, i'm not joking about how i feel towards you. You may not know it, but i think i'm crazy over you. I do alot for you, but you just don't see it, i guess. You may or may not like me, but i don't care. All i want you to know is that, i really do like you. One more thing, i did ask you to like her because i know you really do like her and who cares whether she has a boyfriend or not, you still can wait for her just like how i will wait for you...

you know who you are.

xoxo,

Nicole

2009-10-29T07:22:00.000-07:00

Today was family outing day ! (: Well, at least i bought what i wanted. (: I can't wait to find a new job ! I went to this shop at OU, name Ruffrey or something like that, I gave my name and Marianne's name and they said they will call (: Tomorrow we are going to either T.C or OU to find again. ;D picture time, baybeh. (:

YELLOW.GREEN.ORANGE

I picked YELLOW. <3

AND BLACK SHORTS (:

XOXO,

nicole

ILIKEYOU,

JUST SO YOU KNOW.

2009-10-27T09:16:00.000-07:00

Rating ; 8.5/10

xoxo,

Nicole;D

Pictures to burn ;D

2009-10-27T09:05:00.000-07:00

I went MidValley with HuiXian today to help my mum with her cupcake thingy, then after that we went for shopping a lil while. We went to Nichii (: Super awesome, HuiXian tried on this dress and a shorts. She loves both and they cost a BOMB ! I tried a green blouse and a black shorts. Blouse cheap, but shorts too expensive. Shall bring my mum one day to buy ! Then , we went for a movie ! ;D HuiXian and I cried like hell while watching the movie, it is so friggin touching. (: <3

lesstalking,morepictures :D

xoxo,

Nicole

2009-10-25T21:03:00.000-07:00

the dress i wore to my aunt's fullmoon party was the same dress that me and beatrice bought (: 50 BUCKS, and she still owes me money. (: So super awesome. I need to go out ! I can't just stay at home and rot all day long. Caryn's job started today (: whee ! <3

LEONTANSZEYII,

I still don't want to talk to you.

2009-10-25T09:21:00.000-07:00

I WISH FOR YOU

TO LEAVE ME ALONE.

I just came back from my aunt's son fullmoon dinner (: THEN , I texted Caryn to tell her SOMETHING. woooooooooooooooooh! <3 (:

i'm so crazy over you. <3

2009-10-25T09:02:00.000-07:00

I KINDA LIKE YOU.

HEHEH

2009-10-25T03:35:00.000-07:00

I MAY NOT BE YOUR

PERFECT GIRL

BUT I WOULD LIKE TO

GIVE IT A TRY.

Kee-Ah-Soo (:

2009-10-25T00:12:00.000-07:00

Marianne's Dad and her Mum was talking about this word and Hui Xian was explaining it to them.

I googled it and this is it (:

KIASU
(kee-ah-soo)

Hokkien adjective literally meaning, "afraid of losing". A highly pejorative description beloved of Singaporeans. Possibly our defining national characteristic. The nearest English equivalent is "dog in a manger", though even that is pretty mild.

"You went to get a handicapped sticker just to chope a parking space? How kiasu can you get?"

It's the way i feel about you.

2009-10-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

Howsuperawesomecantheybe? <3

i said : do you ~~love~~ me ?

he said : i doubt so.

i said : meaning ?

he said : It means NO.

The truth is ugly.

xoxo,

Nicole.

ilikeyou. <3 (:

2009-10-24T02:25:00.000-07:00

BEATRICE CHOO PEI SAN MADE ME BLOG (: i love her.

HuiXian just went home. AND , i just fought with my mum.

HOW AWESOME. (:

HEY BITCH, go find your own guy would you ?! HAVING FUN WITH HIM HUH ?! bitchslut.

AND YOU, I can't believe you would actually do this to me. You're so pathetic ?! You said you wanted us to be friends ?! bullshit. AND NOW ?! I cannot believe what is happening. I will never ever forgive you.

2009-10-23T08:31:00.000-07:00

OMG. (:

Went to school and stone there with caryn, marianne and huixian.. HuiXian is currently in my house right now, sleeping. LOL :D

Tomorrow, we decided to bake cookies but i don't think we will. OHWELL, we shall see (:

PAKEJ C

PAKEJ B

PAKEJ A

LETS HOPE FOR THE BEST (:

xoxo,

Nicole

The Birthday Boy (:

2009-10-22T07:01:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

FAN LEON (:

XOXO,

NICOLE

2009-10-21T07:26:00.000-07:00

Today's outing was pretty awesome. The one where i suppose to go with rozenn and rachel, I went at the and anyway (: I promise you people pictures. So, here they are (:

The Day on the 14th of OCTOBER, i went out with Beatrice Choo and Marianne and Caryn (:

Tuesday , 20.09.2009

My Day out with Beatrice Choo (:

WEdnesday , 21.09.2009

Marianne's suprise birthday party (: KARAOKE, baby (:

Thursday , 22.09.2009

Last minute deciding that i want to go for this outing. (:

Thats about it (:

xoxo,

Nicole

The way i look at you.

2009-10-21T06:57:00.000-07:00

Readers ! I'm backkkkk ! (: Finally back rightt ?! (:

Pictures later (: Cakap dulu.

My two days in a row outing. Supposely three days, but i decided not to go for the other one.

First Day - Tuesday, 20.09.2009
First outing was with beatrice, rachel, rozenn and rajvin.

Second Day - Wednesday, 21.09.2009
Marianne's suprise birthday party. The karaoke was fun. But after that, it was all hatred and gilaness angry.

Supposely Third Day - Thursday, 22.09.2009
Rachel's going back soon, so we decided to go out, but i don't think i can make it. Sorry phang and shan !

Today - Wednesday, 21.09.2009
The most craziest day of my life. (: